Finally
By Rebecca

TITLE: Finally
AUTHOR: Rebecca
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RATING: I'm sorry – I don't understand American ratings! A couple of sexual references but no big sex scenes or anything!!!
DISTRIBUTION: I'd be very flattered – just ask!
SPOILERS: Season 5 maybe?? No big give-aways! – a few references from series 4 and earlier but if you haven't seen them yet, where have you been??
FEEDBACK: Yes please else I'll never learn!
SUMMARY: This is set in season 6 – Buffy didn't die at the end of series 5 but Dawn did (not 'cause I don't like Dawn just 'cause I'm not Joss and I can't think of a clever way to bring Buffy back from the dead!) Giles is teaching Buffy to drive, Anya and Xander are getting married – you'll have to read it to find out what happens!
DISCLAIMER: None of the characters are mine, I just borrowed them. It's just a bit of fun!
NOTES: Hmmm – hope you like! My first B/G fic so apologies if it's a bit pants!


I didn't feel ready for this.

But he thought that I was and I trusted him with my whole being…

"Giles – are you sure about this?"

"Of course I'm sure Buffy, I have every faith in you and I wouldn't be telling you to do this if I thought it was in any way dangerous to you."

"Well, ok then…"

I set my mind to the task at hand, I could do it, I could do it, I COULD DO IT!

And I did!

"Well done Buffy, a perfect reverse park! I'm impressed! That was your first go and you did it perfectly."

"Guess it must be my Slayer co-ordination!" I grinned.

"Mmmmm, well possibly.." Giles was distracted. I could tell he wasn't really listening to me. He'd been doing a lot of that lately, his mind always seemed to be elsewhere. I wanted to ask him what was bothering him but I didn't think it was my place to ask. I wish it was though….no, bad Buffy! Bad, bad thoughts! I mustn't think of Giles that way….but I can't help it. What is he thinking about? Jenny? Olivia? Is there some other woman he's thinking about? Can't he see me? When will he notice me! I'm sure I can be all the woman he needs.

"Earth to Giles – hello???"

"Oh, sorry Buffy, very good. Um…shall we get you home then?"

My house doesn't really feel like my home any more. With my mother and Dawn both gone it feels very empty and lonely. But I do have a lot of happy memories in this place….and a lot of sad ones: my mother dead on the couch, my sister cutting her arms open. Dawn – God, I miss her.

Giles dropped me off and I invited him in for some tea (I keep a stash of Earl Gray just for him) but he didn't stay. He just mumbled something about having some research to do and then he was gone.

So here I am alone. I wish he'd stayed just for a little while…

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"Of course I'm sure Buffy, I have every faith in you and I wouldn't be telling you to do this if I thought it was in any way dangerous to you."

"Well, ok then…"

I could see the concentration on her face. She looks so sweet when she's focused. At night in the graveyard, Buffy is the fearless Slayer but when she's trying to drive a car…..

The thing that gets to me most about helping Buffy to learn to drive is that she really depends on me. She hasn't driven a car for years; not since that dreadful incidence when she crashed while myself and her mother – no, don't think about that! Anyway, it's been over 2 years since she left school and since then she's been through even more heartache – losing her mother and then her sister. Now she depends on me even more, as a father figure I suppose. I don't feel like I'm that useful to her anymore when it comes to being her watcher – she's such a capable young woman that a lot of the time I feel that she doesn't need me to help her with her slaying at all. She can "handle" herself; as she's often told me in the past.

Here though – right here, right now, she needs me. She's determined to get her drivers licence, she needs to be totally independent. She really is the most beautiful and intelligent lady I've ever known…

"Well done Buffy, a perfect reverse park! I'm impressed! That was your first go and you did it perfectly."

"Guess it must be my Slayer co-ordination!" I grinned.

"Mmmmm, well possibly.."

No Giles, don't think about it, it's wrong. OK, she's older now so legally I wouldn't be doing anything wrong but still, what would Buffy think if she knew how I felt? She'd be disgusted, maybe even more so than when she found out that Spike was in love with her? I don't know………..if only I wasn't so much older than her, maybe then she wouldn't find the thought so gross…..

"Earth to Giles – hello???"

"Oh, sorry Buffy, very good. Um…shall we get you home then?"

Buffy invited me in for some Earl Gray but I knew she was only doing it to be polite so I declined regretfully. She's probably got somewhere to rush off to with Willow and Tara or Xander and Anya.

It's not long till Xander and Anya get married now, only a week. They really are the strangest couple but they both have pure hearts and pure intentions and I simply couldn't be happier for them.

But I'm all alone. I'm sat here in my flat and all I can think of is her beautiful smile, her perfect body….all I want to do is to hold her close to me and tell her just how much I love her but I can't. She is alone and I am alone and I'm sure together we could be happy. Yet I know that I'll never tell her that.

It's not that I don't know how to express my feelings, I'm just scared of being rejected by her. At least if I don't tell her I can still be part of her life. If I told her how I feel then maybe she would just want to keep away from me. Americans seem to have this misconception of the British - to them we're very reserved and we don't know how to express our feelings. It's not like that in Britain at all and I do miss England. Maybe the English don't kiss and hug everyone they meet like Americans seem to but affection between people who care for each other is expressed without hesitation. The reason I get flustered sometimes when Buffy or one of the Scoobies pay me a compliment or show me affection is because I'm never entirely sure on what level they mean it. It has nothing to do with England itself but more to do with my own family – they were not only reserved and unable to express their feelings, they simply never seemed to care about me at all.

But deep down I know that the gang care about me – they've all shown that many times in the past. I guess maybe I have a few misconceptions about Americans……..and I have grown to love it here over the years. I know I will never leave here as long as Buffy is alive. I can't imagine life without her and the optimistic part of me tells me that she's not going to die young like other slayers, she's going to grow up to have children and die from old age – she will get to do the things that all people should have the chance to do. She's special, if any slayer can do it I know that it's her. But will I always be a part of her life?

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1 week later, Anya and Xanders wedding

I was waiting outside the church with Will and Tara. We were all dressed in fitted satin blue dresses with our hair piled up on our heads and small posies of white lilies in our hands. I was proud to be one of Xander and Anyas bridesmaids – Xander has been a wonderful friend to me over the years and I have become very fond of Anya in the time that I have known her.

The limousine pulled up (Anya likes to travel in style!) and we waited for Giles and Anya to get out the car (Giles was riding with her as he was giving her away). Giles stepped out the car first and looked incredibly handsome in his formal suit. He offered Anya his hand and helped her out the car, ever the perfect gentleman. Ok so maybe he is traditional and old-fashioned but he is a true English gentleman and it's one of the many things I love about him.

Anya looked absolutely beautiful and total happiness shone in her eyes. I'm very happy for her and Xander but in truth, I guess I am a little jealous as well.

Giless looked over and smiled at me, Will and Tara but in my head, his smile was for me and nobody else. My heart melted and my legs felt like jelly. I tried not to look at him for too long else I wouldn't have been able to take my eyes off him and my feelings would've been obvious.

I watched him link arms with Anya and walk her into the church. I smiled as I remembered asking him to give me away when I wanted to marry Spike (that crazy Will and her spells…) but that isn't what I want anymore. My feelings for Giles have changed and developed so much. I was kidding myself to think that he was just like a father to me and now I know that my feelings for him run so much deeper than that. I don't just love him, I'm in love with him.

As myself, Tara and Willow followed Anya and Giles into the church I tried to keep my head up and smile but it just felt like there was this piece of string attached to my face and pulling my eyes down to stare at Giles butt…

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I walked down the aisle with Anya. She really didn't have anyone else to ask to give her away but I was still flattered that she had chosen me regardless. I care a great deal for Anya these days, she's really grown on me. And today she looks beautiful in a white dress with a beaded, fitted bodice and a flowing train that she has chosen.

Xander stood at the altar looking……….like an adult. He looked good. I'm still getting used to the fact that all my kids are grown-ups now. Three of them walked behind me – Willow, Tara and Buffy. They all looked beautiful in pale blue satin dresses but Buffy truly looked a vision. I was glad she was walking behind me else I wouldn't have been able to take my eyes off my golden goddess.

We reached the altar and the ceremony began. I couldn't help but look at Buffy and she noticed and smiled at me. I tried not to drool and return the smile but I'm sure I must have gone a bright shade of red. She really is the most beautiful woman I've ever seen.

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Next was the reception and the bride and groom have just arrived. As their closest friends – their closest family – we go over to congratulate them.

Amidst all the congratulations, Anya suddenly turned to Buffy "You know, it's tradition for the bridesmaid to have sex with the best man but there is no best man, so I'm thinking you should have sex with Giles!"

"Anya!!" – I was shocked and embarrassed (well, maybe not shocked, I am used to Anya's lack of tact by now)

"Well", reasoned Anya, "You can't have Willow or Tara 'cause they have each other" (the two girls smiled at each other) "so I'm thinking you and Buffy might as well get it on. Hell, you're both alone and miserable so why not stop being alone and make each other happy?"

I blushed. I'd been thinking the same thing and I was mortified that Anya had brought this subject up. Buffy blushed too and I reasoned that she was probably just horrified at the idea of the two of us being together.

"After all," continued Anya (to both mine and Buffy's dismay), "Everyone needs an orgasm friend!"

Xander cut in smoothy – "Come on An, it's tradition for the bride and groom to start the dancing. Let's get this party going!"

Xander led Anya away and I flashed him a grateful look. Xander nodded in acknowledgement.

Me and Buffy were left together in awkward silence – we looked around for Willow and Tara but the two girls seemed to have wandered off somewhere.

"Well…er….." – I know, that's the best I could think of!

"Yeah Giles, that's exactly what I was going to say!" She smiled at me. I smiled back.

"Er, Buffy, er….would you like to….errrrrr….." – What was I thinking? Like she'd want to dance with someone "very, very old" like me.

"I'd love to dance with you" she replied. I was stunned.

I walked to the dance floor and awkwardly put my arms around her. She returned the gesture and it felt wonderful. I had no idea what Buffy was thinking: I was desperately hoping that she wanted the same as me but at the same time telling myself not to be such a silly old fool.

Buffy closed her eyes, so I did the same and the awkwardness just seemed to melt away. I was lost in her embrace. It felt….magical. Feeling Buffy so close to me my penis started to harden – I told myself to think of something horrible to calm myself down and so turned my mind to Principal Snyder which seemed to do the trick! "Mmmmmm" Buffy groaned, I was amazed! Did she really just say "Mmmmmm" – was she….was she turned on by me???

Thinking that there might be some remote possibility that Buffy was attracted to me, I felt my erection growing once again until it was rock solid. I hoped that Buffy wouldn't notice. Just the very idea that she could possibly get turned on by me was having a big affect on me. If she had noticed, she seemed to like it as she groaned again "Mmmmmmm". No, she couldn't possibly. She can't have noticed else I'm sure she'd be repulsed, not turned on by it. She's probably just happy and feeling comfortable with her "father-figure" – I'm sure she'd be feeling anything but comfortable with me if she knew what was going on in my head right now. But how can she not have noticed? My cock is pressing hard into her belly, she must have noticed! Is it me pressing harder against her or is it her pressing herself against my erection? Is she enjoying it?

*******

I felt so safe and secure in Giles' arms – I closed my eyes and in my head we were two lovers lost in each others embrace. I groaned in contentment – I couldn't help it, it just popped out! Next think I know I can feel Giles' hardness against me and I couldn't believe it. For one thing, it's so big. I imagined he would be big (and believe me, I've given it waaaaaay too much thought!) but not only did he feel long he felt as though he would fill me up completely. I imagined his cock rubbing up and down inside me. Being so close to him was making me wet and my clit was starting to throb – if it feels this good just having him close to me, imagine how good it would be with him inside me? I pressed my belly harder into his cock and groaned again – I couldn't help it, it just felt so good.

Oh my god, I can't believe this is happening. His cock is so hard and it's all because of me? He's making me feel so horny but could he really be feeling turned on by me? Why won't he kiss me? Why won't he touch me? Doesn't he know how much I want him? He must want me, could his cock be this hard if he didn't?

*******

At the same time they both opened their eyes and gazed at each other. Suddenly they could see the love written all over each others faces. How could they have been so blind?

Neither of them needed to say a word, they just moved their heads closer together. It seemed to take an eternity for their lips to meet but when they finally did, neither of them was prepared for the electricity that went through them as they finally joined in a kiss. Overcome with passion and excitement the two thoroughly explored each others mouths and held each other close, becoming lost in the kiss.

"Hey!" said Anya.

Xander just buried his face in her shoulder smiling and said nothing – he was used to Anyas little outbursts.

"HEY!" she shouted and half the room turned round and stared.

"Ok An – what are you "hey"ing about?"

"Look at Giles and Buffy – looks like we're not the only ones who'll be having lots of orgasms tonight."

Xander glanced over at Buffy and Giles who were completely oblivious to everything around them and just lost in each other.

"It's about time those two crazy kids got together" he said grinning. Anya, Willow and Tara were also delighted – "I did that, it's 'cause of me!" smiled Anya – "I told Buffy she should have sex with Giles and now she's going to!"

Buffy and Giles were so absorbed in one another they weren't even aware of the sound of their friends cheering and clapping in delight at their union. Buffy stopped kissing Giles suddenly. He looked worried – had he upset her?

"Giles – you do know that I love you right?"

"I love you too Buffy"

"No – I mean really *really* love you. I've been waiting for this moment since….forever"

Giles smiled "Well, now we have forever to re-live it".

THE END