Cumspiritik
By Carmilla

AUTHOR: Carmilla
EMAIL:
carmilla99@hotmail.com
FEEDBACK: The breakfast of champions.
DISTRIBUTION: As per usual. You want it, it’s yours. Just let me know where it’s gone.
RATING: PG
SUMMARY: Buffy reflects on her new life with Giles.
NOTES: ‘Cumspiritik’ is a word for marriage or close friendship, though I can’t remember which language it’s from. The literal meaning is ‘breathing together’.


It’s perfect. It always has been, right from the beginning. He knows me, every part of me, every little foilable, every little reaction, everything I do, he knows. And he still loves me. Always.

We are graceful, powerful, strong, but our strength is tender. I look into his eyes and I see my life stretched out before me. Together. Always together.

Each little touch, each tiny movement, communicates more volumes than could ever be spoken. We move together. Our hearts beat to the same rhythm. Our breath and our sweat mingle as one. I am his. He is mine. We belong to each other. Forever. Always together forever.

We are one. I know it. Somewhere within me I’ve always known it. I’m just sorry it took me so long to acknowledge it. But he doesn’t mind. He’s always been patient with me, with my mistakes. He has that sweet half-smile on his lips as he looks at me, and I melt in the warmth of his gentle glances. I don’t know if he knows just what he does to me. I hope he does- I hope I do the same to him. He is my true partner in every sense of the word, and I love every part of him, (also in every sense of the word). I feel privileged, blessed even, to have him in my life. He tells me he feels the same. I don’t know how. Chosen One or not, I’m still just little old me underneath. That’s where he differs from my other lovers. With them, I was just a girl with a boyfriend. But he makes me feel like an angel from Heaven, because that’s how he sees me.

I love him. It floods my mind. I wake up happy because I’m going to see him in the day, and I go to bed happy because I’m thinking of him.

As we make the ancient and primal movements, I have time to reflect on this wonderful man who is now the focus of my world. We breathe together, and as we touch I am happier than I have ever been before. And that’s just the training. The lovemaking is indescribable.

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